The end of a beginning

Like the song says:

Et qu'importe, ils ont pu
Toucher un jour
Le bonheur d'être ensemble
Goûter l'amour
Oublier un instant
L'enfer autour
Le souvenir de ce jour
Vaut plus que tout

Finally it has been a year since we came to France. A year full of discoveries. A year of laughters and of tears. One of the best years of my life. One of the best chapters of my life. At exactly 6.22 am, our flight MH 20 touched down at the Charles de Gaulle airport in Paris. It was a cloudy and a cold morning. At that moment I could not even imagine to believe that i was already in France. I was in France to do my studies. Something that I've always wanted, and something that i don't think even my parents took it seriously. I mean who the hell could have imagine that someone might be doing accountancy in France? But i was there, on the 22nd morning.

Eventhough at first, i had my doubts, as time passed, I told myself that i wasn't that bad. I had the other 9 group members who are all formidable, each with his own character, I met a friend who became a best friend, I had 5 great french professors who are like our mothers and sisters here, and I was living in Colmar, with a city center that looks exactly like it had just popped out of a fairytale book.

Yes i had my downs throughout this year. For 6 months i had mood swings =) But with the help from everyone, from my friends in France and in Malaysia, form the professors and from the university's personels, and from my family, I regained my strength and I tried to find my old me. And luckily today, I have found myself, feeling good beneath my skin, and infact I've never felt better.

For almost a year, i asked myself, is this just a dream, or maybe a nightmare? Am I really here? What am i doing here? Should I really be here? Did I make the right choice? Or maybe I should've stayed in Malaysia doing my Ausmat. It took me a year to realise that what's done has been done. There's nothing anyone can change. And when i look back, I can see how far I've moved. It has been a slow crawl, but I've moved. I can speak French, and even some basic survival German. I've only discovered a small part of Europe, but it was still a discovery. I've lost 10kgs. I eat more vege than I've ever eaten in my whole life in Malaysia (except for green ones though).

What's rest unanswered is, what's going to happen next? Que sera, sera. And just like what my brother said, we can only plan, but God's plans are always better.

Dans un grand jardin enchanté
Tout a coup je me suis retrouvé
Une harpe des violons jouaient
Des anges au ciel me souriaient
Le vent faisait chanter l'été

Je marchais d'un pas si léger
Sur un tapis aux pétales de roses
Une colombe sur mon épaule
Dans chaque main une hirondelle
Des papillons couleurs pastel

Le soleil et ses rayons d'or
Les fleurs dansaient sur un meme accord
Des chevaux blancs avec des ailes
Semblaient vouloir toucher le ciel
Vraiment j'étais au pays des fées

Ce n'était qu'un reve
Mais si beau qu'il était vrai
Comme un jour qui se leve
Ce n'était qu'un reve
Un sourire sur mes levres
Un sourire que j'ai gardé
Au-dela de mon reve

Merci de m'avoir fait realiser que tout cela, ce n'etait pas qu'un reve.
Joyeux Anniversaire a tous.