It's yesterday once more...

I was emptying my wallet when I came upon a picture of me when i was 6. I was 7 when i found that picture, and i've kept it ever since. I wrote something at the back of the picture. I wrote what i hoped to be in 10 years time. Some of them might sound stupid, but that was what i sincerely had in mind. When i read it just now, i knew that i have failed myself. I have failed the Hakimi that i was when i was 7. Today, I'm exactly 17 years, 4 months and 10 days old. When i look back at what i've become, i could understand why people say: Regret of doing something is bad, regret of not doing something is worse.

In 10 years i will:
excel in my studies
be a good son
be good looking
have a lovely partner
be a friend to my brothers
be happy

Alas, none of them were fulfilled.

Yesterday when I was young,
The taste of life was sweet as rain upon my tongue,
I teased at life as if it were a foolish game,
The way the evening breeze may tease a candle flame;
The thousand dreams I dreamed, The splendid things I planned
I always built, alas, on weak and shifting sand;
I lived by night and shunned the naked light of day
And only now I see how the years ran away.
Yesterday When I was young,
So many happy songs were waiting to be sung,
So many wild pleasures lay in store for me
And so much pain my dazzled eyes refused to see,
I ran so fast that time and youth at last ran out,
I never stopped to think what life was all about
And every conversation I can now recall
concerned itself with me, and nothing else at all.
Yesterday the moon was blue,
and every crazy day brought something new to do,
I used my magic age as if it were a wand,
and never saw the waste and emptiness beyond;
The game of love I played with arrogance and pride
and every flame I lit too quickly, quickly died;
The friends I made all seemed somehow to drift away
And only I am left on stage to end the play.
There are so many songs in me that won't be sung,
I feel the bitter taste of tears upon my tongue,
The time has come for me to pay for Yesterday
When I was Young.