Bagai pelita kehabisan minyak, jatuh dilanggar nyamuk, ditindih lalat tidak dapat bangkit semula.

That was a peribahasa by Karam Singh Walia, and a few of my friends and I always made jokes about it. But today, it is exactly how I'm feeling. How ironic.

It seems that I've been chasing rainbows all this while.

At the end of the rainbow there's happiness,
And to find it often I've tried,
But my life is a race, just a wild goose chase,
And my dreams have all been denied.
Why have I always been a failure?
What can the reason be?
I wonder if the world's to blame,
I wonder if it could be me.
I'm always chasing rainbows,
Watching clouds drifting by,
My schemes are just like all my dreams,
Ending in the sky.
Some fellows look and find the sunshine,
I always look and find the rain.
Some fellows make a winning sometime,
But I never even make a gain, believe me,
I'm always chasing rainbows,
Waiting to find a little bluebird in vain.
I'm always chasing rainbows - Judy Garland