Il y a des gens qui m'aiment?

I couldn't update my blog for a few days 'cause i was sick. I had a terrible fever, but luckily it lasted only one night. But i still have the sore-throat, and i've been spending my weekend coughing here and there.

Today we had informatiques in the morning. It felt like the old schooldays. Saturday morning prep or ages before that co-curricular activities. Ok, i'm not going to comment anything on this class, i'm just gonna keep quiet.

Went to Tuna Market again today with ustat and dinie. We bought some beef for tonight's dinner. It was then that ustat told me he has 'Buli' and 'Puteri Gunung Ledang' in his comp. Punyalah susah aku mencari, rupa-rupanya mamat ni ada. So when we got back, i borrowed the 2 Cds from him and i watched Buli alone in my room while eating a kebab.

Now, when i asked people 'how was 'Buli'? is it nice?'. Most people would say.... no... make that everyone would say it's funny. Full of stupid jokes here and there and more jokes if you concentrate on the background. But i would say, it was the best malay movie ever. And i never thought that a malay movie could be as good. I mean, when you have Sembilu, Maria Mariana, or Iskandar...... it makes you wanna vomit just hearing the names. And even Senario's movies are not that enjoyable since it's illogical eventhough it's funny.

Now, if anyone asks me about my life, i would say 'go watch buli, and you'll understand'. Almost everything in that movie that happened to the main character happened to me. Minus the software-creating and the psycho hospital parts. When Dr Ika said ' He suffers from inferiority, and he lacks of self-esteem' i nodded my head. When the main character took a knife and went to the toilet, i nodded again. it was exactly how i felt almost everyday. But when he said ' i'm me because i chose to be me' and 'my reactions to things are my own choice', it came to me that what he said was right. I am who i chose to be. I was the one who chose to be like this. And how I react to things are also my own choice. So now, I choose to change. I choose to choose wisely. I choose to renew my new year's resolutions. It's not too late is it? So like this morning, instead of having a full bowl of milk and cereal, i chose to have a cup of chocolate drink. Less calories. And i chose not to stay in bed just because i don't feel well, but to get up and do things energetically. Heheh.

No. Really. I wanna change. So listen up world. I wanna grow up. According to my brother, 4 things that make someone really a grown-up person
1. Eat whatever people serve you when you go to anyone's house. Hard. But i'll try
2. Don't sleep during classes,lectures,talks and speeches. Used to be a problem. Not anymore!
3. Merajuk dengan member sebab terasa. This is the hardest. Very hard for me. But i'll give my best shot.
4. This final criterea is yet to come....

Ok so i take back anything i said before to anyone. Even the stupid message. ok? And who said 'filem melayu melemahkan minda?'

I think this has got to be one of the best if not the best testi in friendster that i've ever got. By tikah.
kimi comeyll tau..kalo kite potong kepale dgn kaki die..sebijik mcm beger besau..tak cayer try la kwn2...kimi mmg pndai dan bergeliga otaknye..nak tau resepi kejayaannye??die belaja smbil tido..kimi akn mule pejamkan mate apbl cikgu mulekn pengajaran..ini adalah utk lebih memahami dan merasai ape yg cikgu cube smpaikan..dlm mase 5 hgga 8 menet slpas die pejamkan mate...dia akan mule menangguk tanda faham dan setuju dgn ape yg cikgu terangkan..stlh mengangguk dgn kadar purata 13 kali setiap kali tidur..kimi akan terus tunduk utk menunjukkn rasa hormat dan terima kasih kpd cikgu tersebut..akhir sekali bile cikgu panggil name die.."kimi..." mate die akn terbuka secara otomatiknye dan pd mase yg same tangannye akan menyalin ape diajar..inila cara kimi belaja...2 tahun aku dgn lela sntiasa perhatikn gerak geri ko dlm kelas dan kuliah....sekarang aku dh tau!!!rupenye ko belaja ketika tidur..jawab exam pun sambil tido..dahsat tuuuu.....ko mmg hebatt!!!

I don't know why, but since a few days ago, i always dream of me arriving in KLIA, in the arrival hall, with my little brother running towards me, and i would hug him tightly, compared our heights and i would carry him on my shoulders.... and the dream ends there and fades away... And now, before i go to sleep, i would lie on my bed, facing the ceiling, trying to evaluate whatever i did that day, and smile, and say my dad's favourite question ' Kimi, kimi, bilalah nak jadi orang?'