and the idiot was returned to the oval office

So, the americans have voted. They chose to keep Bush in the oval office for 4 years more. When people ask me who would i vote for, i'd say Bush. Why? Because between Bush and Kerry, to me they're just the same. Democrats and Republicans. They don't differ much from one another. It's just that one likes to be an ass and the other an elephant. I would hope that Ralph Nader wins but that's never going to happen. Kerry said he doen't like the war, but what can he do. Bush had already started the mess. Let him finish it (thank you brian for that idea). Anyway, since Bush took office in 2000, he's been acting stupid enough that almost everyone now dares to stand up againts the US. Keeping that idiot in office is not a bad idea after all.

Got back the compostion test that Patricia gave before the holidays. I got only 15 out of 20. I hate it. At the beginning of my essay, i used passe compose instead of imparfait. But i only use it for three verbs. How can that be a reason to get 15? And she even made a bracket from the beginning just until my 3rd paragraph and she wrote good at the side. What? My 4th and 5th paragraph were not good as well? They didn't have any red markings there. I was feeling so bad but i didn't want to show it to anyone. So i just acted as if nothing happened. And i don't feel like joining Brian and Toh for lunch today. So i went home during lunch.

The sadness didn't move at all, let alone go away. It stayed there. I went back to CEL earlier than usual and i had the whole classroom to myself for a while. At first i thought of writing a poem, but i couldn't decide weither to write in in english or malay or french. I've benn writing too many poems in english, my malay poem always sound stupid, and my french... well... i just got 15 for my essay, maybe i'll get 5 if i write a poem. So i decided to read a book instead.

I always think about life. Why are we here? I always wonder, what do i really want in life. Do i want a degree? and if i'll get one, so what? what's next? have a good job? and if i'll get one, so what? what's next? What are we doing here actually? I read abook before about psycology and islam. It said that, for a muslim, life isn't about getting a degree or work, but to serve God and to be accepted into the heavens and that, that is the goal of every muslim. Not what degree, where and what's your job. And it said also that stress is something that you get when you're far from Him. The further you are, the stresser you'll be. Am i far from God? Do i deserve his heavens? What is exactly my goal in life? What am i doing here? Oh God, please help me!

Yup! the clouds are still here. And today it rained a little. Who knows for how long will it stay?
~A clown may appear laughing outside, but no one knows how hard he cried inside~